June 2010
12 posts
(79) Seventy-Nine
“And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It’s a quarter after one
I’m all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call but I’ve lost all control
And I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now”
-Lady Antebellum~ Need You Now
Yo.
<3
(78) Productivity Overruled Creativity
I didn’t write anything today, but I got several things accomplished so I suppose thats a relatively even trade.
For a few moments, I thought that instead of buying my friend Kevin a ticket for Warped Tour, I’d just give him mine. Instead of going with everyone, I’d just sit at home and hide. Even though I’ve been looking forward to this since last year. Even though...
(77) Maybe I'll try to write something tomorrow.
I feel like I’ve been bottling things up for way too long and that I’m about to burst. I’d like to talk things out with someone, but very few people in my life could listen like I need them to and even fewer can offer me exactly what I need in terms of everything and anything else. This being said, I find myself left without too many options. Ignoring things and refusing to deal...
(76) It's over.
Years and years of bullshit and it’s finally officially over.
I survived today’s event without crying, though there were a few times where I came pretty freaking close (such as when, while my uncle’s coffin was being prepared for the trip to the cemetary, one of my mom’s cousins who I barely know leaned over to me with tears in her eyes and said “he really loved you,...
(75) Mon Dieu
I’m waking up at 5:30 tomorrow morning to get ready to go to a funeral. I get to wear a suit (my brothers and I joked about the idea of the three of us dressing alike and our mom liked the idea enough to have us go through with it). I have also been recruited to be a pallbearer… by my mother… this is a weird revelation (in the recent past, she’s actually complained about me...
(74) There goes my caffeine hiatus.
I’ll never survive Saturday if I don’t keep a steady stream of coffee passing through my lips.
Lovely.
<3
(73) I'm still waiting.
The initial situation is over. After laying in a hospice for a few days, my uncle passed away Sunday morning.
Now I’m just waiting on the end of the aftermath. My family and I went out on some errands yesterday; stopped by the funeral home to hammer out some details, went to lunch, stopped at the cleaners, went shopping for funeral clothes and certain… necessities (little green army...
(72) I hate waiting.
I especially hate waiting when the thing I (and my family and certain other people) am waiting for has no actual time-frame.
I desperately need to go for a very long drive or to just go somewhere and sit alone or to go somewhere and curl my body against someone who won’t feel the need to fill the silence with talking. I need to get away from all of this for a while and, not necessarily be...
(71) Seventy-One
I’m hungry and finally feel as though I can actually eat. I’ve felt nausesous for most of the morning. I’ve been awake since 8 AM (a time that usually doesn’t actually exist so far as I’m concerned. Today was a special circumstance). The coffee I drank earlier didn’t really hurt, but it didn’t exactly help either. It’s only 2:30 in the afternoon but...
(70) Seventy
As of today…
I have decided that several important things need to happen this summer.
The hows, whens, and (in some instances) whys have yet to be determined.
I have begun to entertain the idea that I am in love with the idea of love.
This possibility is soon followed by the doubt that I am actually capable of finding my “dream guy” or even his real life counterpart.
I...
“(69) “What would it take to make a change and have it stick for once? Once...”
– From the song “I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead” by Barely Blind.
(68) I'm not ready to go to bed.
If it weren’t for the fact that my hands are shaky, I feel weak, tired, and as though I may not have gotten enough to eat today, I would totally stay awake a bit longer to pursue my latest train of thought in terms of my future career. I’ve spent the last hour or two looking through the list of occupations on the Bureau of Labor Statistics website in hopes that I would stumble across...
