May 2010
7 posts
(67) Ponderings
I’ve been thinking about my futur lately. Nothing too in depth. Mostly just fleeting desires to get online and look for career choices that I’m unaware of in hopes of coming across the one that will finally give me the assurance that I won’t just spend my life flitting from one trainwreck to the next. I finally looked up a few different career paths today. Currently, becoming a...
May 29th
(66) Minor points of interest.
Ari is currently sleeping peacefully on my bed. I will soon be joining him. I have spent most of my time in the last couple of weeks watching Korean and Japanese dramas online. I blame Jon, Kevin, and Kevin’s roommate Marco. Regardless of who is to be blamed, these things have consummed my life. Tomorrow I will be taking a brake from these dramas because I just finished one and I feel like...
May 28th
(65) Sorry for the freak out.
I’m better now. Night, loves. <3
May 21st
(64) A small explaination for (63)
In (62), I said I was uneasy about hanging out with Cora, Jordan, and Jordan’s cousin on Saturday. This feeling got worse as it got closer to being time to leave. Somewhere between saying yes to going and actually leaving, I rationalized to myself that for one reason or another we weren’t going to make it past the friends stage. After I came to this conclusion, I began to think of...
May 17th
(63) I wanna be like the Motion City Soundtrack...
I want to be able to disappear anytime I want to. I would if I could. Unfortuantely I lack the important components: Transportation Money A place to run to. I have been miraculously calm. I think it’s because of the beer. That or I’ve finally pushed myself too far and I’ve become temporarily disoriented. I vote both. I’m coming to my senses now. I haven’t...
May 16th
(62) Something feels off.
I was relatively commited to the idea that I was tired of being lonely and that once I got back into town I was going to start dating. I wasn’t exactly expecting things to happen so suddenly though. I’ll have been home for a week as of tomorrow and I have a date-esque meeting thing tomorrow night. Cora is trying rather relentlessly to set me up with her finacé’s cousin....
May 15th
(61) Perhaps I don't need you as much as I...
I started this account in order to branch out and allow others to see me for who I am. Right now, in this exact moment, I don’t think I really need that. I’m fine with simply exploring my own little world and lavishing in the experience of simply existing. I struggle with myself from time to time. I get angry when I make small mistakes or when I simply feel like I’m failing at...
May 5th