February 2010
18 posts
(18) Memories are blurring my vision.
I absolutely love driving. I spent a ton of time in the car as a kid and the love of it just stuck with me. There’s nothing better than tagging along with my dad when he goes to run errands or asking to borrow the car for a few hours and just navigating my way through NWI. It’s very relaxing. Sometimes, I even get friends to tag along so that I’m not alone; though I usually...
(17) How is it that I do not own a gluestick?
It has begun… sort of. By it I of course mean my plan of cutting caffine from my diet (aside from really small doses such as those found in chocolate). I actually did research today to figure out exactly how much caffine I take in on an avereage day. I then compared it to the generally agreed upon “healthy” amount. That amount falls between 200 and 300 ml. Most days, I ingest...
(16) Tonight, I'd like to keep this short.
I just finished watching a Lifetime movie about a group of women and a man who form a Jane Austen book club. It’s a great movie and I’m a sucker for Lifetime romance so that was a bonus. I especially liked the end; the main women drives to the guy’s house early in the morning after being told by his sister that he likes her and then reading the books he had given her to read...
(15) Nostalgia and other things
I am a rediculously nostalgic person. Nearly everything reminds me of something; especially songs. I tend to go through phases with music where I’ll listen to the same song, album, or artist for several days without interruption from something else. The song/album/artist is usually chosen in accordance with my mood and, therefore, when I go to listen to it again later on, the emotion...
(14) Levels of Exhaustion
I often say that I’m tired, but I rarely specify just how tired I am. It’s easier to just stop there than having to go into the details of exactly what tired means to me in any given moment.
The levels go like this:
Stage one- This is pretty much the norm for me. I can’t remember the last time that I felt completely and utterly awake. There’s always this small, nagging...
(13) I can't believe I did that.
I was working on tonight’s post… and then I hit the backspace button not realizing that I had tapped the track pad and ended up backing out of the page.
Okay… lets see how much I can remember.
I decided to watch something on Discovery channel about King Tut’s ancestry. In doing this, I missed the chance to watch team USA beat Canada in hockey. I’m not completely...
(12) Wishes.
I wish I could watch my past like a movie. I don’t want to change anything; just make commentary and take notes, I suppose. There are so many things I’d like to watch and remember. I’m most definitely the only one who’d find all of it interesting, but that wouldn’t matter because I’d be the only one who’d see the significance of most of it anyway. I know...
(11) Oh my...
The picture I posted before this is of me in today’s outfit. I’ve been very lazy lately and I haven’t done laundry in a couple of weeks. Down to my last pair of jeans, I began to question if I wanted to pretend they were dirty too so that I would have an excuse for wearing something dressy. After using this question as my aim status, I gained help from a friend which led to the...
(10) I will be home then.
This past (school) year has been very… interesting for me. I’m constantly in a state of change and that has been extraordinarily apparent in the decisions I’ve made and opinions I’ve changed since starting college.
Essentially, this was me by the end of high school:
I was completely anti-drug in every possible way.
I refused to consider dating anyone who was under eight...
(9) I think I'll try to make this short.
I’d really like to go to bed soon. For the first time this week, I don’t feel completely exhausted. I’m even in a rather good mood compared to how I’ve been feeling for the past few days. I’m just ready to switch from daydreams to night dreams.
It’s kind of funny how random little things can easily improve my mood. Todays random things include Motion City...
(8) This time it's going to work.
Caffine is a huge part of my life. I’ve been drinking pop for as long as I can remember, I’ve been drinking coffee since I was around maybe nine or ten, and I started drinking tea sometime around then, too. Over time, I’ve become dependant on it. I even get withdrawl symptoms when I go too long without it.
I’ve tried giving it up before. It worked for a little while in the...
(7) I knew this would happen.
I did way too much sleeping over the weekend which led to me having trouble falling asleep last night. My extraordinarily annoying heater’s incessant clicking and my excessively active imagination did not exactly help this matter. I think I finally fell asleep around 4:30 AM after much tossing and turning. I woke up at 9 and then proceeded through my day. After my two classes, I worked from...
(6) Happy Valentine's Day!
My few, rather silly excuses for relationships never got the chance to see a Valentine’s Day. This being said, I have never actually had a Valentine. The closest I’ve come is… well… lets just say trysts in the dark corners of deserted hallways can be very lovely.
Unfortunately, they can also sort of mess a person up a bit. Happy memories can kick a girl’s ass in...
(5) So... yes.
I have absolutely no idea what I would like to talk about tonight. I’m saving my mini rants on Valentine’s Day and anything romantice oriented until tomorrow, but those are the things that have been on my mind the most today.
Hm… okies. How about I chat about my current career choice.
I use the word “current” because up until a few weeks ago, I’d planned on...
(4) Ick.
I’m happy that I’ve been keeping up with posting something every night so far. It’s only been a few days, but for me that’s pretty awesome. For example, I easily could have made the excuse tonight that I don’t feel well so I don’t feel like posting anything. Instead, I’m using that ickiness to fuel tonight’s post.
I do NOT take good enough care of...
(3) I honestly miss high school
There were many events which I would love to erase from that time or redo, but even those events were worth experiencing. They helped mold me in to who I am now. I’m not saying I’m completely satisfied with who I’ve become. I’m sure my first two posts easily show that I’m not. I am grateful that I at least know who I don’t want to be; what I’d rather not...
(2) It's rather late...
12:37 AM to be a little more precise. For some of you, that may still be rather early. For me, it’s nearly time to wash off my make-up, slip into something comfy, and crash onto my futon. In many ways I’d like to use this as a journal of sorts, so I think it’s only fitting that I get in a few things before I give myself over to sleep.
I constantly feel like I don’t want to...
(1) I've recently started to realize some things.
For starters, in order to have healthy relationships I have to be willing to put myself out there. Seems like a rather simple concept, doesn’t it? Unfortunately I seem to have some issues with it even if it does seem simple. I’m not entirely sure why I have such a problem with getting close to people and letting them get to know me. I’m beginning to understand it bit by bit,...
